Woah! I can't believe I've been gone for 9 months.
Well, actually... I can. And since it's been that long. I feel as if I owe you an explanation.
Here's the story...
Last July 2013, I quit my job as virtual assistant to a New York-based jewelry designer. I went off to pursue my dreams anywhere near fashion. So, I got a hold of a job as a store supervisor for a famous local retail company. I had stars in my eyes imagining all the glamour that lured me into retail industry. And eventually, the stars faded away to morning and I woke up and smelled the coffee. Well, my relatively new job wasn't that bad really. Before I signed up, all I could ever think of was that there was a great chance for me to get absorbed into the brand's creative department. But as I looked at the people who've been working for almost a decade, it seemed the only direction I was going was of a hamster's. There isn't a lot of corporate growth to be expected working at the operations side. I might have had a great chance to if I'd applied for other departments. Sadly though, since the company's seat is in Manila (where I'm not particularly fond of), I've been turned off by the idea. And to no surprise, I declined the 5-month extension offeed when my contract ended last Wednesday.
Which leaves me to another crossroad. I've prayed to God about the path I should be taking. Somehow, I still feel lost. And yet, I'm extremely grateful for that chapter of my life. Some people may think it was a complete waste of time but I thought that if I hadn't gone through all that, I wouldn't have known what job I should not be taking. It thoroughly reminded me of the things that mattered the most- time, energy, family and relationships. Yes, having a job matters... but there isn't a lot of satisfaction after you've sacrificed your life for your dreams. And the Lord definitely knows human psychology when He said, "What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?" Mt16:26 And so, now, the Lord has given me a picture of which jobs I'd take. Such as one that had the weekends off. Having the holiday's off where I'm particularly not required to be on duty. And well, I didn't know that I would be saying this. But I would like to have a 8-5 job.
Honestly, sometimes, it brings me to tears when I'm reminded that I'll be 25 this year and I still haven't figured out with what I should be doing right now. But with all my heart, I know I would love to become a fashion designer someday.
So, with a humble heart, I ask you guys to pray for me and my dreams and all the best things God has in store for me in the future.
Thanks for listening!
-xo,
D
